part deux to my little spiel the other night

So yes the other night I was very cranky about my friendships with some certain people. But after heaps of thinking and talking about my predicaments with other people, I've come to a conclusion which has cleared the air about it all-I need to stop pitying myself.

Why's that?

Because it's not my fault. It's these people's problems who decide to cut off all ties from me (and in all honesty, if you don't wanna be my friend you need to re-evaluate your life choices)

I try my hardest to be as genuine to everyone as I can possibly be-whether I'm in a ridiculously happy mood or I hit the lowest of lows. And I don't care who you are, if you're my best friend or if you're an acquaintance, they are usually the things that attract groups of people or a person to me and make them think "hey maybe I can be friends with this Ellie girl". I know some people can't tolerate it, or they can only tolerate my kookiness and angst in small doses. 

But in all honesty, I do not give a rat's arse about what you think of me or what you have to say about me for that matter. And don't be afraid to tell me something you don't like about me-I won't get offended, I will most likely retaliate with an insult or something to make you regret the moment you decided to even try and make my life difficult. 

I look at these situations in two lights; firstly there is the sadness when you realise that you've spent so much of your time putting in all this effort being friends with a complete douche canoe who evidently doesn't want to be your friend, sure it's sad. But I think after having some insights in the aftermath of these situations, that in all honesty I don't need to rely on these people for happiness. 

There are so many other things in life that I have that make me so happy-my family, my rabbit, my friends (who will always be there for me) and my music.

Don't let one twat waffle make your life hard, you just need to pick yourself up and tell yourself that all in all, you're the better person. They're not worth the tears and the drama, just wake up and smell the roses because there are so much more important things in life!